Heart racing at the newly learned information that has captivated both my emotive ability - overwhelmed, afraid, excited, shocked, dismayed, concerned, ecstatic, protective, thankful... 9 whole months..
Growing anxiety that mirrors the patient creation inside the body that was selfishly consumed by my masculinity, now an environment of cultivation, development, breath, growth, life.. Challenging the desired reality of our once self absorbed states of mind, creating and connecting a space for newfound experiences and pleasures that could never before be realized without this circumstance.. Coiled around a withering foundation, as if to have emerged as a war general redirecting the strangling vines to reestablish a a welcomed request for a new opportunity. A blessing of sorts, coming in the form of a fetus baby girl, boldly speaking in terms of love and validating concerns, angelically hovering over us, as if to say "everything will be okay"...
An unexpected dream in the form of life... Contradicting a once real fear of baron loins and inability to procreate... She exists to cipher out the deepest essence of our love, a manifestation of a dream once dreamed... A perfect response to an existing misunderstanding. An energy that cannot be recreated... She is a cultivated moment of love and passion, a product of deep emotional ties and expressions.. She is the epitome of a hearts dream.. Unexpectedly expected, hopelessly hoped for, anxiously anticipated, 25 years of waiting... But we have known her all our lives.. She is our beating heart, our breathing lungs.. She is all our reasons.. She is ours, we are hers... An unexpected dream..
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